In class yesterday, we planned to plant potatoes for research involving plant density. Landon, a young father of 1 and 1/2, and I rode a Gator to the field, and a man named Jordan drove the
other Gator behind us, while Professor Willis took a pick-up in front
of us with everyone else in the truck bed. I didn't know this, but the
way to the field took a dirt road, and we ate a lot of dirt driving
behind the pick-up. Thank you for eyelashes. Landon and I sowed seed 8 inches apart, in staggered rows 15.5 inches apart. We did this on three plots of 10 by 10 foot.There were maybe 15 of us planting. Some of us were in class together, and then there was one other class. I just have to say: I love farmers. They are slow-paced, but know when it's time to get serious. They are friendly and genuine. We need more farmers.
It was fun. And I almost didn't go.
The Vanilla Life
Saturday, May 24, 2014
Friday, May 16, 2014
One sheep
Today I went to the temple, because I am a Mormon. In it, we have rites that we perform to bring us and our families closer to God and Jesus. It is funny how doing something physical makes your spirit realize things.
Every week since I got off my mission two years ago, I went to the temple. However, this last semester, I didn't go but twice or three times. Now, I am back to a normal schedule; I go to the temple once a week.
Today, when I came out of the temple, it started to rain. I didn't mind. When I went to cross the 4-way stop, a mini-van stopped and a man in the passenger's seat asked if I wanted a ride. Of course, how could I say no? I opened the sliding door and inside were a handful of beautiful young teenagers. They were on their way to see the Illusion show. I asked them if they liked magic, and if they did magic. One of the boys said "I am magic." (:
Every week since I got off my mission two years ago, I went to the temple. However, this last semester, I didn't go but twice or three times. Now, I am back to a normal schedule; I go to the temple once a week.
Today, when I came out of the temple, it started to rain. I didn't mind. When I went to cross the 4-way stop, a mini-van stopped and a man in the passenger's seat asked if I wanted a ride. Of course, how could I say no? I opened the sliding door and inside were a handful of beautiful young teenagers. They were on their way to see the Illusion show. I asked them if they liked magic, and if they did magic. One of the boys said "I am magic." (:
Saturday, May 3, 2014
Horses and Cobbler
Tonight I went to help do yard work at one Mike Palmer's home. His
wife, Faith, busied herself creating Dutch oven chicken, cheese
potatoes, beans, and peach cobbler. My friend, Cathy, and I engaged in
stacking pallets, but were soon made obsolete by the three men in the
work group. They were strong, and I couldn't even carry a pallet by
myself, so I understand. We instead made ourselves useful by helping in
the kitchen.
Shortly after I grated a half block of cheese, their daughter Charly taught us how to ride horses. (I ought to be doing homework right now.) I had never ridden a horse before, and I felt pretty ridiculous trying to steer the thing and kicking it-only to have it move 10 feet and stop again. When I got the thing to trot, I experienced turbulence something like that of a baby bouncer seat, and then I nearly got my head kicked by another horse named Cinnamon, when I rode to close to her.
We ate.
The boys went off to ride, some of them, and Mike and James (?) shot hoops in the back yard, while the women stood by a campfire encircled by The One Ring and discussed books we had read and what's good. Nothing quite like that good old library feeling. When the boys came back, they joined us by the fire, and we slurped down peaches and cream, patted our tummies, and said good night.
Shortly after I grated a half block of cheese, their daughter Charly taught us how to ride horses. (I ought to be doing homework right now.) I had never ridden a horse before, and I felt pretty ridiculous trying to steer the thing and kicking it-only to have it move 10 feet and stop again. When I got the thing to trot, I experienced turbulence something like that of a baby bouncer seat, and then I nearly got my head kicked by another horse named Cinnamon, when I rode to close to her.
We ate.
The boys went off to ride, some of them, and Mike and James (?) shot hoops in the back yard, while the women stood by a campfire encircled by The One Ring and discussed books we had read and what's good. Nothing quite like that good old library feeling. When the boys came back, they joined us by the fire, and we slurped down peaches and cream, patted our tummies, and said good night.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Oops!
I haven't written for over a year. My apologies.
Here are the things that I have done in that time:
Did my internship time at Agriland Farm Management Company, Inc. (April-August 2013)
Finished 3 semesters, and started my final one for my Bachelor's degree in Horticulture.
Gone to dear Gini Bond's wedding. (July 2013)
Dated one boy, named Alex, and broken up with him. Breaking up is an emotional strain, even when you aren't happy in a relationship! (October 2013)
Moved four times.
Drove to Utah for a day to go to Ikea with the DeLora's, Bonds, and the infamous Cathy McKeen. (January 2014, I think)
Driven the California coast (heavens, that is the busiest and most beautiful state!). This includes excursions such as hiking in the Redwoods, a stop at the San Diego Botanical Garden, a bite at Phil's Fish Market, and of course, a day at Disneyland! (April 2014) I loved it, but I missed going to Comic Con with my friends!
Worked early morning custodial, gotten promoted to lead student, and quit for school.
Started working in the gardens with small fruits, like strawberries, raspberries, currants, etc. (April 2014)
Found ZZ Ward's music, which is nice and swanky.
It looks like I have done a lot, hm? Have I missed anything?
Here are the things that I have done in that time:
Did my internship time at Agriland Farm Management Company, Inc. (April-August 2013)
Finished 3 semesters, and started my final one for my Bachelor's degree in Horticulture.
Gone to dear Gini Bond's wedding. (July 2013)
Dated one boy, named Alex, and broken up with him. Breaking up is an emotional strain, even when you aren't happy in a relationship! (October 2013)
Moved four times.
Drove to Utah for a day to go to Ikea with the DeLora's, Bonds, and the infamous Cathy McKeen. (January 2014, I think)
Driven the California coast (heavens, that is the busiest and most beautiful state!). This includes excursions such as hiking in the Redwoods, a stop at the San Diego Botanical Garden, a bite at Phil's Fish Market, and of course, a day at Disneyland! (April 2014) I loved it, but I missed going to Comic Con with my friends!
Worked early morning custodial, gotten promoted to lead student, and quit for school.
Started working in the gardens with small fruits, like strawberries, raspberries, currants, etc. (April 2014)
Found ZZ Ward's music, which is nice and swanky.
It looks like I have done a lot, hm? Have I missed anything?
Monday, March 11, 2013
Greenhouse Management
I watched my daughter, my Amille, trundle out the front
door and into the yard. All the kids
play in front yards these days. The
cozening call of radiant sun had lured her out in rumpled linen pants and
button-blouse, sleeves-rolled up. I
watched as she smiled benignly at the day and loped into new snow, completely
unbothered, as if it would melt at her touch and flowers would blossom beneath
her magic hands. Her mousy, fritzy brown
hair faintly glowed in the sunlight.
She has her mother’s hair but her father’s grooming
habits.
The bluegrass was determinately emerald green under the
insulation of the snow, which had fallen in the night, and plugs of it allowed
themselves liberty to come out of hibernation.
Not hibernation.
Hiding.
Yesterday had been different. Yesterday, it had rained all day. It had been humid, fiery, almost tropical,
nearly insufferable. My husband had had
to lock himself in our room, blinds closed, lights off, stark naked. Normally, I would have joined him,
delightedly; but I was afraid. I hadn’t
even frisked my husband in the month since my pregnancy scare. That joyous stupor of impending parenthood
mingled with fear for the future, in this instance, had been void of any kind
of bliss. There isn’t a threat of fire
in hell that could make me bring another child into the world. And yesterday was as close to that as I had ever been in my entire
life. No, one child was good
enough. This was a different world. And today, this world
decided it wanted snow.
There is a reason for this freakish weather, this climate
pattern to which I had acclimated, but which my humor can’t assimilate.
Three years ago, a large group of irreligious radicals,
whose objective was and is probably unknown, even amongst themselves, putrefied
what was left of the Earth’s remaining fresh water. So many people died. In order to preserve the rest of humanity, small
scattered cities were erected under the refuge of glass domes, built in the coastal
desert regions of Africa. The big idea
was that if seawater were to be transported into the greenhouse, the sun would
evaporate it and leave behind unwanted brine.
Cold metal pipes condensed and caught the fresh water, and it was
regimented and circulated. The brine was
gathered, compacted, and used to build bricks for our houses.
It was a reclamation project which was supposed to be
finite, lasting no more than 20 or 30 years.
Bring the water in, filter it, subsist upon it, let parts of it out into
reservoirs, and bring in more seawater.
Then go through it all again.
Today was a snow day for the sake of filling our coolers
with ice, in place of refrigerators that we didn’t have the materials or
electricity to produce and sustain for each individual family. It was a useful, efficient way of life.
However, the refuges were incoherent; and in between, the
heathen zealots had learned to thrive in the surrounding coastal deserts. Rats.
They were outside, in the dry.
Outside: the desert, the dunes,
the doom.
Once, an unmarried man, depressed and trapped, tunneled
under the dome and went out into the desert.
We received word that he had been slain and eaten by the enemy, his
remains left to dry in the desert sun.
His bones were brought back to us, only to be returned to and buried in
the dunes and no one to mourn for him except his confederate dead.
There was one thing connecting the refuges. Some great man decided that there needed to
be order and leadership, maintenance and mandates, in such a fragile
system. I don’t know him, nor have I
seen pictures of him to this day.
Nevertheless, once the towns were built, efforts were made to establish
a penal code modified to unite them. And
to homogenize the penal system, a highway was stretched from city to city to
city. A series of water-conservation
laws were placed:
No alcohol was to be made.
No blood was to be donated.
No pets were to be brought to the refuge.
Water was to be used according to need: no sprinklers, no pools, no squirt guns, etc.
Toilets were to be flushed once at the end of the day, for
treatment and recirculation.
Teeth were to be brushed without running water.
Hoarding or saving of water on personal premises was
ABSOLUTELY PROHIBITED.
These are a sampling of the
strictness with which our resources were managed. This was justice. If laws were gratuitously or carelessly
overlooked and broken, there were imminent repercussions. We understood, even appreciated, the gravity
of these laws—more especially since the institution of Management Day.
On this day, once a year, those who
use more water than authorized were collected onto an old yellow school bus and
taken to summer camp, where water was scarcer and its tenants reminded what
kind of world was outside the greenhouse.
They would scour for cacti, hunt for scorpions, pee in jars and drink
it—they would, some of them, not come home.
And they never took one without his family.
When I had lived in the United States, summer camp had used
to mean something good. It had been
relical of a time kids got wet for fun; you drank and sweat and spat and ate
watermelon with other kids and laughed snot out of your nose. It had been a place you could cry when you
scraped the back of your leg on the limb stump of a fallen log, or pee in a
hole out in the woods, let your fluids run back to their mother Earth. Today, that idea was wasteful. Here, or rather, there, summer camp was perpetual summer, and searing. It’s where you knew you’d go if you let the
faucet drip without notifying the Conservancy Officers of a plumbing
malfunction, if you went outside when the Officers turn on the rain, if you salvaged
a bowl of water for your fevering daughter.
It seemed unfair, but it wasn’t really.
As we had been fortunate enough to be found and informed of
shelter, before the greenhouses, we had managed to escape the merciless,
man-made drought. So others, on the
outskirts of this claw machine of care, seeking the safety and shelter of our
technology, perished in the endeavor.
There simply weren’t enough scouts on our side to go and get them. So the desert took them in. The arid granules shifted with the sea
breeze, rustling and gossiping amongst themselves who had traveled the farthest
in the last ten thousand years and how much they’d seen. They obscured the defunct refugees, buried
here and incapable of decaying in their sterile bed; the sand atheistically
covered our dead in a gritty blanket. I
don’t like to mourn the dead—I don’t like to mourn at all. It’s a waste of time.
Now, not only the desert, but the enemy also tromped on some
of my friends or neighbors or family, ignorantly cohabiting with them in holes,
coming out only for the sake of discomfiting the colony’s attempts to thrive.
But here, we would be safe.
Here, we would have enough. The
air would be clean and the domes would do luscious things for the simulated
environment. We would have no animals in
our refuge; but zucchinis, squash, tomatoes, grapes, quinoa, all kinds of
legumes, fruits and grains would bejewel this faux-Eden, and orchids would
stand sentinel and stately in every yard.
I would remember how difficult it had been to keep them from crisping on
my kitchen sill in Ohio. Once in a
while, the orchids, with their serious posture, would make me chuckle. They would remind me of how I was when all
this happened.
So it happened that I, with a 4-year-old Amille and my
husband, had been relocated to live here in one of the sheltered cities, along
with my neighbors, dispersed. All of my
old childhood friends and schoolyard playmates, grown and married with their
own children, spirited to different coastal towns, and we went to ours. We were strangers when we came here.
Now, we had come to find a boon in the neighbors who felt
that same throb of things uprooted, things wrenched from our mouths the moment
we could begin to taste them. And
because the greenhouses were only about the size of a suburb block, we had quickly
become familiar with everyone there.
The Marriotts, the Seiks, the Maynards, and we lived on the
short side of the block, it being ergonomically rectangular. I began to hold book club with Emmy Maynard
and the girls. Its content consisted
mainly of the Bible, since the emigration hadn’t allowed for much intentional
and intelligent packing, and books were not priority then.
The Bible belonged to Nessa Marriott, the Mormon, who had
snatched it from her eldest daughter the night their family arrived. She had cried and clasped her daughter in
gratitude, the Bible wedged between their hearts.
Once, during the pregnancy scare a month ago, she had asked
me if I wanted her husband to put his hands on my head and pray over me. And I had let him.
Anyhow, the book club made me feel regular, like I was in
our bi-level in Kettering. It felt right
to be talking. Like I could buy a dog
any time I wanted, or an exotic aquarium with puffer fish. Like I could make love to my husband and get
pregnant whenever I pleased. Like I
could call any of my old friends over to barbeque with our family. And, in fact, in spite of our now meatless
existence, grilling was something of a pastime here now. It wasn’t normal grilling, it was greenhouse
grilling. Vegetable kabobs were the
thing. And the grills burned no fire,
but were composed of some manly technology that I wouldn’t be bothered with to
find out. My husband didn’t care for it
much either. He’s more of an
intellectual.
I say intellectual, but I mean it symbiotically with
idiotic. The first time I saw him, I was
15 and he was 18. He was loitering with
a group of boyhood friends outside the United Dairy Farmers. I was going there just to get ice cream, and
enjoying a walk. It’s something I’d
do. I walked past the boys, eyes
averted, and the gang grew noticeably more boisterous. Boys are loud, and often get louder when
girls are around, so it seemed natural that I ignore them. I plucked a Flintstone Push-Pop from the deep
freezer, paid the cashier, and went on my way home up Dorothy Lane.
He pursued, but against the roar of traffic, I couldn’t hear
him gaining on me, even when he was directly behind me. I noticed him only once he was in my
peripheral vision; by then, he startled me terribly, and that made me
angry. I walked tersely into a quiet
neighborhood close to my house, and turned quickly as I launched my Push-Pop
upward into his wide, pointed, nose. He
sputtered, and his dark, shaggy hair fell into his face as he doubled
over. I didn’t stop. Once he stopped coughing, though, I heard him
laughing, and I thought he was queer.
A week later, I saw him again. He waited at the UDF, this time alone,
sporting a surgical mask and orange jump suit.
He said, “I’m prepared to be friends.”
It was so dumb that I couldn’t not
laugh.
We spent a good year or two together, me pushing him around,
and him making jokes about it, which always made me feel bad. He asked me once “Are you happy when you’re
with me?” I don’t remember what I
answered. After the summer of my
seventeenth year, we lost touch. Maybe
because I was a geeky high-schooler.
Maybe because I didn’t answer the question correctly.
He came to my high-school graduation. I was dating someone else, Gary, whose last
name I don’t remember, and who was going to school to become a writer.
He came to my graduation party also. During this time, he nattered amiably with
Gary. Or at least it seemed so from the
other side of the room. Making my
rounds, thanking my friends and family for free money, chugging around the food
table, I heard a sliver of what they were saying.
“No,” Gary said, “I don’t know what the infinite monkey theorem is.”
“Oh, well, it just says that if you have a never-ending supply
of monkeys and time, one of them will write Hamlet
by chance.”
“Oh.”
I knew my husband well enough by then to realize that he was
attempting a quip-stab at Gary’s profession, and it made me feel stupid,
because I was seeing Gary, after all. I
wanted this conversation over.
“James,” I said firmly, stepped between them, and gave him a
reproachful glare. He smiled
good-naturedly and left. I didn’t know
it then, but James had been studying to be an English teacher. In reality, he was inadvertently reviling
himself along with poor Gary. He never
could injure a person without injuring himself.
As the party crowd thinned, James stayed. He found my parents and prattled on with them
for hours, until no one was left but him and Gary. Neither of them seemed to want to leave me
alone with the other. But I had to clean
and start my thank you cards. So I
chafed politely and entertained them as long as I could.
After they had respectfully worn their stay, I jostled them
both to the door and asked them to leave.
Gary first, and James behind, they hung their heads in resignation. Just before passing over the threshold, James
looked inquisitively at Gary outside.
“What was your name again?”
“Gary,” he frowned.
“Well, Gary,” James chimed, “it was nice meeting you,” and
slammed the door in his face.
We were married two months later.
Over the years we spent together, he had made me hoot over
stupid things, like old jokes and toilet humor.
Even in this strange new community, he had adjusted, and re-become
himself. So, James functioned more as
entertainment, rather than gourmet.
South of our house, however, Abednego Dam grilled all day
today in his front yard. His wife
cajoled him with her hip, her arm slung through his idle one, his hand pocketed
in his apron. They had looked
happy. They were only slightly younger
than our little family, with a daughter only slightly younger than ours.
Their 4-year-old daughter, Amen, had been entertaining
herself long before Amille skipped sloppily into the Dams’ front yard. The girls embraced, little girl hugs, and
continued with Amen’s project; she was stomping the snow into the grass, so the
girls could play toss.
We spent today slowly. Emmy Maynard detached from her husband to run
across the street and gifted the grillers a fresh batch of candied raisins made
from her white grapes. A family from the
opposite end of the block, who I’m acquainted with but haven’t had the
opportunity to grow close to—the Netts—brought their boys over and sat with our
families. We talked all afternoon.
The sun, setting on today, brings all
the warm colors of a bedspread and midnight snack. One color, a yellow, rides high and ugly on
the black pavement; and interrupts the dream.
As we’re calling out our good nights, the bus stops in front of the
Dams’, and they are taken.
Now, I’ll lie awake, my husband
silently the same. I’ll weep and snot
into my pillow, and then I’ll bury my face in it, because today was so good.
I’ll pray for rain.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
A Most Blessed Person
The last few weeks have afforded me so much opportunity. I feel like a crab that is growing in its shell. Some day, my shell will be too small. I've suddenly become so incredibly poor and, wanting to take responsibility for my own care, I'm noticing how many things I've had done for me my whole life. I didn't pay for school, for food, for clothes, for books, for fun--any of those thing--before. Now, I have to be aware of what comes and goes in my world. I have to plan as well as look back. It's incredibly stressful, for example, to wonder how I'm going to pay for next semester, or how I'm going to find an internship. These are things that I have to take care of, because I'm supposed to be a grown up. Looking back, though, I am always reminded how I never wanted for anything. It gives me joy and peace that far overwhelms my future anxieties. I knew once in the deepest part of my heart that God was never going to leave me alone, and I'm reminded today that that is still true. "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeded out of the mouth of God." As the ravens fed the prophet Elijah, so will the servants of God feed me, if I trust. It sounds awfully poetic, but it's also very true. The tears I might have shed in self-pity have been turned to tears of gratitude, as water into wine.
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